BLAH BLAH BLAH! ~Char

Hmm?

Tue, 30 Jan 2007 09:12:52 GMT

I just wrote a bunch of shit and then accidentally erased it. Grr!
Let's start over.
I'm back to Livejournal so that I can use it to help with my journal assignment for Acting V. I can't make myself write shit down all the time, but I always be on the internet!
Summary of what I don't feel like re-typing:
1. Did a combo of dropping in, "observe, wonder, perceive," and reading from monologues today. Jason and I were partners, and our intense feelings of safety with each other made it so amazing and intense and... yeah. This fella is becoming one of my favorite people on the planet. I, boys and girls, am surrounded by FANTASTIC people.
2. Once again: more nuts about Danny than ever. This happens from time to time. I enjoy it :) For him, I am so endlessly thankful.
3. A series of recent life-changing events have made me realize that I need to get back to working on myself. I can be better, MUCH better , than I am. I want to be someone I would admire, respect, look up to, etc. Let's see how this goes, shall we?
4. LOST is coming back and I'm so damn sick of waiting!
5. I might just go ahead and sell my freaking eggs... ssshhhh!

Bear with me... I just need to type

Tue, 16 May 2006 09:02:12 GMT

For anyone who doesn't feel like listening to a bitch-fest, you might go away for now...
I am in disbelief... it's nothing you'll find too significant. I just can't believe I haven't written in this thing since early summer... especially considering how much has happened. Honestly, I don't even know where I left off. For now, that's irrelevant.
I feel so helpless. I've felt helpless for the better part of this year. It's 1:44 in the morning- typically, these days, I'm up until about 2 for the same reasons. Stress... about money, family, money, school, and money. Oh, and money. I've kept up with three jobs. Hurricane Katrina, George Bush, and Mary F. Marx (evil mother) have decided that those three jobs should take priority over my school work. Katrina, Bush, and Marx are each responsible for my severe lack of money. Marx refuses to sign off on the loans that I will one day be responsible for. Marx told me my whole life that someday I had to go to a good school. Marx stopped meeting me halfway when it was most inconvenient. Katrina destroyed everything I owned. Katrina also destroyed my relationship with Marx. Bush didn't help protect me from Katrina, and Bush took away most of the loans that Marx refuses to sign for anyway.
I am so tired. I'm so tired of wondering how the hell I can do this any longer. I don't sleep enough. When I can sleep, I'm too worried to do so.
This lawsuit is killing off what's left of my energy. I told Danny tonight that I'm afraid to check my emails. If they are from Marx, Gallagher (dad...), or lawyer, I... freak out. These emails likely signify more things I have to do that I haven't done yet and probably don't have time for.
Grades are becoming total crap. I can't study when I'm so tired. I can't not work. I feel so emo. Fuck it. I am, for the first time in my life, experiencing panic attacks. They come about this time... 2 a.m.ish. They aren't pleasant, and Danny will probably agree.
I know everything will be okay. I just don't want to wait any longer. I'm trying to keep smiling.
Apologies for the bitching... actually, nevermind. You'll be okay.

MEOW!!

Tue, 19 Jul 2005 17:39:34 GMT

it's been a while... I think...hmm, what's the news?

I currently have some sort of bug in my tummy. it's making me a little sick and a little not hungry at ALL, but I'll just do what I do to everything that bothers me... and KICK ITS ASS!!! yeah! anyway...

I've developed a recent obsession with Bjork's music. how ODD is that? my friends got me hardcore into her over the space of like 2 hours the other night. seriously, she's crazy talented. also, you all must go out and listen to the band Embrace. holy crap... they rock... and someday, I'll bear their children. for realz.

aside from all that, I'm sorry if I've been a loser about keeping in touch with people lately. I'm in class and at work most of the day, so it's nothing personal. dana, you've been especially AWESOME about it, so thank you!

Woohoo! We made the list!!!

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 20:20:24 GMT

In honor of the tropical storm we're currently experiencing here in Loooosiana....

Hurricane Hotspots
The Worst Places for Hurricanes

1. Southeast Florida (Miami-Fort Lauderdale-West Palm Beach)

2. Key West and the Florida keys

3. Southwest Florida (Fort Myers-Naples)

4. West Florida (Tampa-St. Petersburg-Sarasota-Clearwater)

5. Outer Banks islands, NC (Cape Hatteras)

6. Central Texas Gulf coast (Galveston)

7. Central Florida Atlantic coast (Melbourne-Cocoa Beach)

8. Florida Panhandle (Pensacola-Panama City)

9. Central Gulf coast (New Orleans, LA-Biloxi, MS-Mobile, AL)

10. South Texas Gulf coast (Corpus Christi-Brownsville)

holy sheet

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 19:27:37 GMT

something nutty happened yesterday at work. first I'll give you a little background info. about a week ago I was in a place where the cops were called. I won't give you the details unless you ask because they would take up too much space. anyway, it ultimately wasn't that big a deal. but yeah, these 2 cops came, did their thing, interrogated me somewhat, then left. they asked if I work and I told them yes and where. so a few days ago, I'm at work about an hour before closing, and one of these cops shows up and starts a conversation with me. (I remembered him sortof giving me eyes the night they were called over but I just assumed I was imagining things.) he talked to me for like 15 or 20 minutes about random bullshit, said he was looking for some water glasses and wanted to know if we had any, blah blah blah. we didn't.
yesterday I'm at work and who walks up to the front desk? MR. COP. he stands there and asks about the glasses and jokes around with me and all that, then he takes a piece of paper and writes his name and number on it. he's all like, "so yeah, if those glasses come in, gimme a call. or you know, if you wanna do something, since you're always working and stuff." WHOA! then he walks toward the door and does that cheesy thumb-and-pinky-phone and says "hey, charlotte!" then mouths "call me." what the fuck? isn't that like, ridiculously unprofessional? he used info. he got from the interrogation to come find me. that aside, we met under VERY intense circumstances (during which I was crying!) how LAME. I really hate covington cops... holy crap... I should get him in trouble... hehe.

Moooo

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 18:05:09 GMT

So I was watching Live 8 the other day, and it got me thinking... The work I do for Habitat for Humanity and whatnot is stuff that makes me really genuinely... HAPPY, and watching the concert got me so emotional (f.y.izzle, Live 8 was a day long event with 100 artists in like 5 different countries playing to upwards of 800,000 people each, all for the purpose of raising awareness about poverty, disease and AIDS in Africa. Live Aid, its papa, was the same but it also raised money...and happened in 1985... and Queen was there... anywho...) So yeah, I think I'm supposed to do this kind of stuff. Not performing in a big concert (duh), but working for the peace corps or some other organization that goes to and helps these countries. I dunno... anyway, vent time over.

I drank too much last night for the 4th of July and came to class CRANKY as all get-out!!! BUUUT I think I aced my quiz which rocks. Erm also... I really miss Danny... he and I started working and now I can't just randomly call him at any time of the day. 26 days 'til we see each other. WEEEEE!! I wrote up this countdown... and by wrote up I mean created a LOVELY chart with hi-liters and pens and markers and it's just DARLING *chuckles*.

I called Kevin the day of Live 8 to see if he was watching, and I talked for like 20 minutes and hung up. About a half hour later I saw the calendar and realized it was his birthday and I didn't say anything! BUT neither did he which made it quite funny. I did call him back though... and he laughed at me... Maybe you had to be there? Anyway, sorry Kevin!!! I lurve you!

No mucho decir

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 20:24:40 GMT

soo I guess my mom sortof went batshit crazy last night. not that it really affected me seeing as how she does it like... EVERY DAY!! anyway, drama ensued but it's slowly clearing itself up. my plan of action in such cases is just to hush up and wait for the storm to pass. I swear... crazy mommas...

that aside, my semi-psuedo modelling agent guy sent me an email saying he had some work he thought I might be interested in... hmmm... do I really have that kind of energy? who knows? it might be fun!

I Support Spider Genocide...BOOO SPIDERS

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 19:08:08 GMT

okay, I have to put up the URL for this because it's so damn funny... if you know robb. even if you don't know robb, it's pretty damn funny.

http://sacramento.craigslist.org/clo/80418855.html

to those who wrote it (matt and brandon) and to robb, I'm giving you full credit, so don't sue!

so today in class, I got so bored I wrote danny a letter and half the 2nd page was pictures of stick figures having sex in different positions. I amuse myself greatly. I had one of those hangovers you feel in your tummy, so time went by very slowly...

so I think I'm getting even wierder... I was talking to maggie on the phone today and she asked if I was on drugs... teehee.

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 21:17:31 GMT

today my very lovely wonderful friend is getting a bilateral masectomy... please think happy thoughts! she was diagnosed with breast cancer a month or so ago, but thankfully they found it early. on that note, I have a benign tumor in that region that's getting checked out on friday. they told me 6 months ago that it would just go away... it did quite the opposite, so they're talking about surgery...and they aren't sure it's just a tumor anymore... EEK! maybe I already mentioned this in another posting? I don't know... blah. anyway, I'm not getting all worried because worrying at this point won't do anything. just gonna wait 'til friday, yes ma'am.

whoa... I just found out I kinda bombed my psych. test... ouch! anywho...

so today I was taking a nap in the library at the school where I take classes, and suddenly I hear these LOUD ass people. they're all like, "hey! why're you sleeping in the library, woman!" they said it like, 5 times. so finally I got very pissed and sat up and said "'cos I'm fucking tired, why are you yelling like a retard!?" then I almost felt sortof bad, except that I didn't at all. I mean I don't usually yell at strangers, but ya know... some strangers just need to be yelled at. and yeah... I shouldn't have said "retard"...I know...I'm sorry, Jebus!

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 16:18:08 GMT

NEW BAND FOR ALL OF YOU PEOPLE WITH GOOD TASTE (if you have bad taste, you probably don't realize it, so do lots of homework and hear me out.) This band called The Bravery... they have a song released from their new album (self-titled) called "An Honest Mistake." I'm sure some of you have heard it, but oooh my goodness... if you haven't... DO SO. If you hate it, well... up your butt with a coconut. (I think my twin-sis came up with that, and I have the urge more often than any of you could possibly realize to say it...)

Soo...yeah... waiting for clase numero dos to start... then my first day at work! YAY for paychecks!

My dad came into town last night for my cousin's wedding this weekend. I haven't seen Dad since right after I graduated from high school. He and my brother John and I went out to eat, and I guess I felt ignored the entire night. I think I bore them both a lot. So I just sorta stopped talking :-p Hey, that meant more time to enjoy my lobster! :)

I miss Eugene people so much right now... the whole Peter/Emily thing has put a sour taste in my mouth about everything that is Louisiana. still, I have a lot to look forward to, so I'm staying positive! *big ol' thumbs up*

Woohoo! I'm gone marry HARRY POTTER

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 17:00:50 GMT

Your Harry Potter Husband (between Harry, Ron and Draco) by Molianne
Name
Age
Your husband	Harry

Quiz created with MemeGen!

Booty sex is the devil!

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 16:51:22 GMT

okay...erm... BRIEF disclaimer. I'm not obsessed with sodomy. I'm more obsessed with the word sodomy... I think it's funny. there. you know who else gives me shit for my frequent references to booty sex? GEORGE W. BUSH. WAPOW!!!

florida was nice enough, but a wee bit boring. my cousin's friends are all druggies, but like, hardcore druggies who literally entertain themselves by shrooming and sitting in a pitch black room... silent. no one bothered to consider that perhaps charlotte would be less entertained, as she was not on any mind-altering substances but was, in fact, quite sleepy. 18 year olds... HA!! wait... I'm dating one of those. hushup!!!

oooh and I got confirmation that the loser formerly known as my best friend is currently in a relationship with the ex formerly known as Peter. whatta bitch! I don't get how you can watch your galpal snuggle with a guy, hear him tell her she's the most perfect thing ever, be in the room next to them while they're getting it on... then DATE the guy! is there not something creepy about that? oh, not to mention he THREATENED TO KILL LEAH AND ME! (and himself! for me!) but, I digress. they'll both live long, sad existences, whereas I will continue to be more than superbly happy with danny. blah!

went to bars with friends last night... then watched "the white noise." my opinion? better not to pay theater prices, but really kinda creepy. I had to walk back to my car in the dark and nearly soiled my britches. it also makes you appreciate the one you love MUCHO. :-)

last note- we also watched this japanese movie called "battlefield baseball." it was the craziest, stupidest, funniest movie and I have to recommend it. it's like a baseball game of good vs. evil, and they all just kill each other. hysterical!

Title

Thu, 16 Jun 2005 15:38:23 GMT

I'll be on my way to FLA in approximately 3 hours... yippeee....

Erm... I don't exactly KNOW these cousins very well, and therefore am not exactly STOKED to be visiting them. I mean, don't get me wrong, they're really sweet, lovely people. I just don't feel like making small talk for 3 days. That, and I hate white people.

NO I DON'T! You silly kids. :-D

Hmm what else... more class, more missing people in Eugene, more having ear talked off by lonely mother. LOL. why is that so funny? it really isn't... in opposite world...

I have to say, this whole living for free thing has been FAAANtastic. As much as I love bills (so much I'd sodomize them with a puppy... HA! I crack myself up...), not paying them has its perks. Then again, not living at home has more perks...

Maggie comes home in a few days! WEEEE! My cousin is getting married next saturday so she really has no choice but to stop by. This makes me smile :-).

OOH and I got all As last term... maybe I can use this info. to con mumsy into actually ALLOWING me stay out late with her car(sans the bitching when I wake up in the morning??) In case I didn't tell anyone reading this, a tree fell on her other car. *snorts while attempting to stifle laughter*

I have a mosquito bite on my back where I can't scratch it DAMNIT

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 20:08:38 GMT

Grr! I was supposed to start my new job today, but the lady called all like "uuuh I messed up the times, can you start sunday?" and I was all like "uuh NO!" and she was all like "uhhh how about tuesday?" and I was all like "BITCH!" and she was all like "ahhhh!" and I was all like "yeah bitch, cry!" and she was all like "I suck." actually I'm a liar. but yeah, I can't start work 'til tuesday... so I'm still poor. but hey, poor is very different when you're at home and you can mooch off your mommy for a few weeks. speaking of mommy... I'll be travelling to florida with her on thursday. turns out my great aunt sweeta (yeah, I know... we only have names like that in the DIRRRTY SOUTH!!) is really sick (congestive heart failure... *eesh*), and since she's the last of her generation in our family, we need to go see her before she isn't so visitable. umm... I BORROWED some of mommy's pain pills. yes, I will give them back. and by give them back, I mean I will be less likely to put her in a retirement home some day.

Chinese food makes me smile when it's not made of puppies and kitties

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 16:07:38 GMT

Okay, Kevin, I finally got this thing running! Now I can ramble on and on and on about my day and you'll feel COMPELLED to read every word because there's a little obsessive compulsion in all of us... or not...or maybe...yes?
SO! I'm back in Louisiana. It's the same story as usual. I leave Oregon, I'm cranky about leaving Oregon, I have a lame ex. waiting back home, I question why I ever decided to come back home, I spend a few days home, and PRESTO! I love home! Except... erm... I haven't reached the "PRESTO! I love home!" part yet. *Patience*...
I just got out of my psych. class (yay summer school) and I really truly honestly believe that I got dumber over the last hour and 15 minutes... no seriously... like... DUMBER. no one ever said louisiana public schools are top notch! I PROMISE.
Hmm, what else... been to a couple of bars with friends and whatnot... now just waiting for Maggie to get here!! Then we can play and stuff!
Okay, I'm done... time to go cause a ruckus in the library. OH! You think I WON'T!?

Back!...Again

Fri, 12 Nov 2004 03:06:18 GMT

so... this is my first entry since... a long time ago? we'll see if I can keep it going this time. hmm, what's changed? first of all, what a miserable human being I sounded like in my earlier entries! why didn't you people slap me around!? yeah, anyway, I'm with Peter now (and happy! happy is good!) and...erm... I live with Diana and Kevin and Daniel, which has been cool. I've met some of my best friends over the last 6 months, which I didn't necessarily expect, but they're amazing people (and by they I mean Nick and Bill and another Nick and Kevin and Leah and SO ON.) I've also moved away from a few who were at one point my best friends, but hey, I never thought growing and moving on and whatnot was a bad thing. Soo we lost the election... which upsets me greatly. but hey, c'est la vie. oh, and gen. john ashcroft is retiring. WOOHOO! okay ben just came by and he knows I'm not interested but SPEAKING OF DENIAL! grrr!! whatever. okay I have a paper to write and Diana is sitting here staring me down 'til I write it. so BYEBYE!

La la la

Mon, 09 Feb 2004 04:13:30 GMT

Last night, Diana and I went skateboarding down a very steep hill and nearly died, but you know what upsets me more? The fact that I was so tempted to spell that "sk8boarding." shame on me! and shame on avril lavigne...for so many reasons. am I so lazy that I need to resort to spelling with numbers? it's time to reconsider my priorities in life *sigh*
anyway, we watched "Grind" while in Salem, which was such a badly done movie that you can only appreciate it if you have a real love of skating, which we do. otherwise, Bam Margera was in it, so who could complain?
I just found out I have a psychology test on Wednesday...yucky.
Oh, and my mom and I aren't currently on "friendly speaking terms," which might not come as a shock (for those of you who understand my utter dislike of stupid people), but we've actually gotten on really well since I started college. oh, well, that's over...good job, mom! yeah...
The Josh situation still bites, but ah also still loves him!
plans for big sister's wedding are coming along smoothly on my end. she's the one freaking out, which makes sense. my bridesmaid dress is so so pretty though. makes me feel like a princess...(...)

I'm Back

Fri, 30 Jan 2004 00:44:55 GMT

heLlo! I haven't written for a while, have I? Nope...sorry to those persons negatively affected by my ignorance. La la la. I did a dorky thing yesterday that I think is COOL...'cos I myself am a dorky thing. There, I just proved it.
Anyway, I joined the A.F.I. fanclub. Dude, I get so much cool stuff with this! Including like, free concert tickets and... shirts...posters... I'm just waiting on the super awesome FAN PACK to arrive (in 2-4 weeks...BLAH.) so yeah, class sucks arse, but I don't have a test for a while which is special. yaaaay.
ahh amber is getting a piercing tonight. that's not what scares me...it's WHERE it is! ouuch. she's got guts, and I'm supporting this muchly. piercings are cool. La la la.
I hate when I have 2 choices and both of them suck ass. So enough about that.

I loves my skateboard....ooh my purple skateboard....so soo pretty. It loves me, too. That's why I don't fall off it a lot...yet! I can't wait to not suck at it (I used to not suck...that was funner...)
I wish people didn't talk crap. I've done my share, but it all sucks. Can we start being real, seeing as how we're out of highschool, and away from highschool BULLSHIT? PLEASE. *sigh*
One more thing. Famous people who spend a lot of money on stupid stuff don't deserve their luck. We have no excuse for the amount of poverty in the world. Excuse me for sounding like a hippie, but when Justin Timberlake can spend $3000 on a pair of gloves, the tips of which he cuts off, so he can wear them during his concerts...I mean come on! Wal-Mart has SUPER cheap gloves, and who knows the difference? Not I...nosir. Alrightywhitey. I'm done. MWAH.